The beauty is

The beauty is certainly in the Deatils.

I was following many articles regarding telecom industry, though I was reading them from a Managers perspective (which is basically to look things from strategic view). But now I have been assigned to study on particular technology and see if it can be ported on our platform. I am loving that, as now I am supposed to know in and out of the platform, the messages which are sent from one layer to another etc. Certainly I could say the beauty lies in the details, more deep you go you can appreciate the beauty within.

Its time to do something

I have been reading a lot of stuff lately. Mostly related to mobile technology. Went to OCC meet at Bangalore too. Met there interesting people, people who had started their own company, people who are into IT business for a long time. So in all having a nice time.

But now is not the time to just read blogs or track how google is performing or read the specification of google phone. I am in now my twenties and if I am not doing something at this age then probably couldn't do in future. This is the very high point of my life. I am in Bangalore where so many bits move around, outsourced from US to here and then back. Its probably the best place to stay, and also my company with its cool (European) work culture is optimum for me to do something. Bring out something best from me.

So its not the time for just reading and thinking only, its the time to DO...

Pretence and nothing else

Its 29th of this month, which means that its about a month I have joined the new company. And still hasn't done anything. Just pretending to work. Pretending to solve something, compiling code from baseline and then run the code. Procrastinate the work to the fullest possible. Even my manager comes to me and asks me how am I doing because I am not showing my face to him for weeks, try to run away from him. I don't know why but I am in the same mode which I used to be during college days. Not doing anything in the lab hours,talk at length with pc.

I want to change my self, I don't want to be the same chintan which used to be at college not doing anything just sitting and thinking like all the mango mans in the world. In fact I don't want to be one of them, a aam adami. Lets hope things might be different from this moment on and I do some productive work rather than just following Dilbert principle for staying away from boss.

Mysore Trip

I made it.. I wanted to be at mysore and I went there alone. Checkout pics from here.

When no one responds to your call, walk alone. Walk alone.

Group Dynamics

I was planning to go to Mysore today as I wanted to be there during dussera. I was planning to go alone. I knew if I am going to ask my friends and tell them to make a plan then it would just remain as a plan. Because usually when you want to go in as group then mostly due to one person the entire plan would fail. If anyone says yaar chodo nahi jaana hai then entire groups morale would die and eventually everyone would sit at home.

The same expected thing happened. I am at home writing this blog and other friends are planning to go to MG Road. This way I am spending my weekends. I don't want to spend my time like this. I am cursing my self and telling that I should have went alone without asking my friends.

I can't help..

She dragged me into quagmire .. more i try to come out of it , more i get into it ..

She is sitting in front of me .. i really cant think anything else .. the teacher is teaching the topic which i love .. he is teaching ARM processor but here i am deep in the thoughts .. nothing i can think beyond her .. after some time i tell to my self that okay leave this concentrate .. but again into it .. more i try more deep i go ..

So the same old story .. i am not talking to her .. just enjoying watching her .. Lost .. seriously lost .. i don't know how to approach her or talk to her ..somebody help !! but now i am enjoying every glimpse of her ..

Seriously i can't help .. falling in love with you

A to Z of my life (part 2)

B for B.Tech

Infact I am engineer now !!

Many of my friends told me that they didn’t want to pursue engineering; they would love to go in statistics, media or arts. But when I think about whether I made right decision? Or whether I truly wanted to become engineer? Then answer was always yes. Certainly no doubt about it . no second thought.

Because engineers are problems solvers, they are the people who make Newton & Kirchoff’s laws into action. And I love to do that.. to solve problems, apply a rough theory into practical application ..

So done with engineering .. and now I am in technology business .. and there is no better time to be an engineer. The only thing I like about technology is speed. The speed at which technology evolves is amazing, and that opens up space for people like me who wants to strike early in tech business.

Also in particular I am in software side. There is Moore’s law which is ruling the hardware side, which states that in 18 months we will get twice speed at half price. But thankfully (fortunately) the software is not governed by such rules. Always software lags behind the speed of hardware, so there would be place for engineers like me who will be writing codes to tune software with the speed of hardware.

Sometimes I regret that I couldn’t study computer science engineering. But thankfully ICE (Instrumentation and Control Engg) wasn’t that bad!! Along with sensors and control systems we studied electronics, computer science, management (some six odd courses). So in all got balanced perspective on many subjects. The engineering was like interdisciplinary course comprised mainly of Sensors, Systems and Signal, and spent amazing time with my batch mates in ICE department.

Even if the toughest code which I have ever written is “Hello World!!” or still struggle to connect circuit on bread board or just made block diagrams in all the exams .. I am engineer now .. and infact I love that.

C for Chintan

If u ask Shakespeare, then he would say “what’s there in name” but if you ask Gogol, protagonist in Lahiri’s novel Namesake then you have to read entire novel to find out what’s there in name. Well for me, there is certain platonic relationship with my name.

Chintan, a Sanskrit word which means to cogitate, meditate or in simple words just think. And that’s what I do most times. When I am alone (most of time) I always like to think, think and think. There might be any idea jumping in my head all the times, that doesn’t let me sleep. Also it is the reason why I am talking constantly to my self, always occupied with some thought; so it helps me see things in different perspective and allow me to take right decisions.

So Chintan is not just noun, its adjective as well as its verb too.. Sometimes the persons name just serve the purpose of noun only but for me its all the above three. When I sign as chintan then it can completely describe me. The name is chintan, the guy always like to do chintan (as verb) and most importantly as an adjective. It says/ describes succinctly what am I doing whole my life and mostly rest of my life . .chintan only.

inner voice

I really do not worry about death ..

but more concerned about part of me which dies out from within when i am still alive ..

A - Z of my life

My brain is baldy wired. Sometimes there are many crazy idea seem to pop up in my mind. Sometime these ideas can not let me sleep. Infact now also I am unable to sleep because of that many things are running in my mind ranging from to start reading for GRE before its too late or to noble lecture “My father’s suitcase” by Orhan Pamuk.

There are many things which are closest to my heart, about whom I always think subconsciously. Was trying to put things together, and found out that all those things can be organized in alphabetical order.

will start with A today ..

A for AOE (Age of Empires)

Started playing this game in second year, when sameer was my roommate in coral hostel. We both became very crazy about this game. Still I couldn’t rationalize playing this game so fanatically but sometime you have to follow your instincts. The voice of Paladins and Elephants kept running in my mind. In second year of engg there were many important subjects to study like Network Theory to Microelectronics but found AOE more attractive.

As the game started to evolve from original Spanish Persian Black Forest Late attack game to All Random Champion game and then many new players joined the battle. ET (a.k.a Achilles) was the first to join, infact AOE gave him reason not to watch porn and rather play AOE.

We moved in Emerald hostel in third year. Because of tech savvy persons like Saraf and Nikhil we were the first in our batch to have lan connection in hostel. As Iqubal Quadir, founder of Grameen Phone a telecom major in Bangladesh ( which is sponsor of Bangladesh national cricket team ) said “Connectivity is Productivity” , hence we became more productive as we got our lan connection.

So we started playing AOE on lan. By this time many new players were there, but it was time of Hector and Achilles, Bal Thackery (a.k.a sameer) and Rash. We played 4 -4 ( four vs four ) most times, for which we have to wait many times for the last person to join. Mostly played in team of Oddu vs Non Oddu, Circuits vs Non circuits, Kamakkal vs Rest and our personal favorite Top wing vs Bottom wing. Sometime we have to wait because it was difficult to get 8 comps. Thankful to Kancha, Neel and Yogi we found comp most times. And then we would start the ultimate battle, which would last for atleast a hour after that hours of discussions, playback and match analysis. Once we start we would play two to three matches, so we end up sleeping after breakfast ( which was the incentive to play third game to have breakfast)

I was playing good, rather very good at that time?? Me and ET were winner at Pragyan 06 AOE championship. But I wasn’t good enough to beat ET on one on one, and still I regret that. So things were good at that time, studying OpAmps or Control systems in classroom and then playing full night AOE after class and in mean time just think about AOE. We used to play mostly during Exams when all busy people would be in their rooms to study !!

But things came to end in seventh sem. Our top wing team ( Me, Achilles, Bal Thackery and Sardar) started to beat bottom wing team comprehensively. One thing is that I always like to win only I don’t like to lose in AOE. So because of my attitude (p.s because of me only) Sardar (a.k.a Baggu) shouted at me, bahut chillaya ki tu bahut hero mat ban and so on.. Then we became “Best Friends” afterwards. Despite of sharing a common wall we never talked in entire seventh sem. Today also I feel bad about my attitude that day. Hey Sardar yaar sorry for that day.

Unlike of all Bollywood story, this story didn’t had a happy ending. We never played in Emerald after that. Just recollect that once we went to SAASTRA for AOE tournament but unfortunately lost in Semis there. Tried to play many times in last sem, but sadly couldn’t play last game.

Still I can not forget those nights when I played 4-4 or the time when there was only goal in life was AOE. Despite falling grades (became 7 pointer in two consecutive sem) only direction was AOE. AOE was in my dreams, it was in classroom lectures, was in dinner time discussions it was every where ..

Only one wish unfulfilled, I wish I could do ..

net send * guys join AOE

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& could play one last game …

on commitment

had a conversation with my friend on commitment .. we talked a lot .. he tried to convince me that commitment is a positive force ... but i think other way round ..

Life before commitment

The person thinks that he is the center of the universe .. he makes all the decision on his own .. doesn’t think of anybody else .. thinks that world revolves around him ..

And after commitment

He has to revolve around her !!

And that’s true ..seen for many people .. change is either for good or bad .. but life and perspective will change drastically ..

axioms

Was thinking that how my life should be, wat are the things which should be always there and so on .. thought for days , in fact months .. and came to realize that in my life these two things should be present

One is Simplicity

As the word suggest ..my self should be as simple as possible ..with minimal input impedance

And the second one is Honesty

Should be honest with people and especially with my self .. sometimes during my past four yrs , when i think back i realize that i was not at all honest with my self .. was trying to please my self with some arbit stuff .. was synthesizing happiness .. but now hopefully things would be different ..

as in design world, there is one important rule which says KISS - Keep It Simple, Stupid .. hopefully life should be that way ..